By Morgan Mandel
Christmas Card Blues
Ruth frowned , as she set the box of Christmas cards on the kitchen counter and reached for her pen in the junk drawer . Wh at used to give her joy now filled her with sadness. Once she'd groaned at the money she'd spent on cards and stamps. She wished that were still t rue.
Time marches on. Many of the people who 'd touched her life were gone. Some had moved and left no forwarding address es , but the majority resided where no mail could reach them.
“I miss you,” she said aloud to the empty kitchen.
A wintry afternoon snow /sleet mix pelted the windows . The wind howled, reinforcing her feelings of abandonment.
Christmas time was supposed to be a happy season, but she couldn't shake off the melancholy. She should be grateful for those who were left , and she was . Still, she longed for th e one's she'd never see again. Mom and Dad, sis, her niece, Nancy, her good friends, Judy and Maureen, and so many others w ere not around anymore . At times like this, she regretted not finding someone to share her life. Then again, maybe he'd have gone the way of the others.
She padded on her fuzzy slippers to the wooden table , pulled out the matching chair and began penning notes inside the cards . It was hard to make her stiff fingers move right, with the arthritis taking over , not to mention she was more used to typing than writing in c ursive. Forty years as an administrative assistant, first on a typewriter, then a computer, did that to a person . Five years after retirement, she still hardly wrote, choosing to use a keyboard instead.
That reminded her. She hadn't checked her e-mail and blogs. She'd do it after she finished the cards . Her heart lifted at the thought.
Soon she'd stamped the few cards , placed Christmas seals on the ir back s , and secured them with a rubber band . She'd mail them tomorrow. For now, she'd switch on the laptop computer on her kitchen desk and see what every body was up to.
The usual mass of e-mails awaited her from e-groups she'd joined over the years. Also, she hadn't gone through her blog roll yet today. Smiling, she entered the worlds of her cyber friends, commiserated and/or cheered them, according to what was appropriate. Janet had had a baby girl and both were doing fine , Sue 's dog was eating chair legs, John wa nted suggestions for an inexpensive , caring Christmas gift for his girlfriend .
When she started to get hungry, a glance at the computer clock showed two hours had passed. It was time well spent. Though she'd only met one or two of them in person, her online friends were real and important to her. Every day t hey shared secrets, triumphs and sorrows with each other . Wasn't that what friendship was about?
She wasn't alone after all. A feeling of warmth stole over her , kind of like when she drank a cup of hot chocolate on a cold day. Her snail mail list may have diminished, but not her e-mail list.
She was truly blessed. Smil e widening , she got up to fix dinner.
Merry Christmas, Cyber Friends!